Where To Start
Ξ November 1st, 2009 | → 11 Comments | ∇ mom, ramblings |
I haven’t written anything over here in close to a month. There are a variety of reasons why I haven’t written…too busy running around enjoying the fall, having nothing blog worthy to say, being named in a lawsuit that specifically references this little site of mine, just being lazy, etc.
ANYhow, I don’t even really know where to start these days. Just don’t know what to write about. I could tell you that I am too lazy to get out and rake my yard, but that photo above proves that point. I could recap my adventures in Florida when I stayed with Britt’s family and attended Adam’s party, but so many others gave much better recaps. I could tell you about my trip to Columbus the few days before I left for Florida, but it already seems like forever ago and most of what I find funny would get lost in the writing. I could tell you how Twitter is sucking the blogger from me, but most of you know the feeling.
WAIT! I know what I can tell you. The night I got back from Florida my neighbor told me there was a reporter snooping around my house, wanting to interview me for a story. Something about my Mom’s work with the Clean Water and Clean Air initiatives. Fortunately my (very hot) neighbor told the reporter that I probably wouldn’t be interested and that he shouldn’t be digging up painful memories since I’m still struggling with Mom’s death even three and a half years later. (I love my neighbor!)
I called the reporter, who left several business cards shoved in my door and in my mailbox, only to get voice mail. (insert happy girl wiggle here) A day later the reporter called back and left me a voice mail message saying that his story on air pollutants needed someone who had lost a loved one due to the environment and everyone he talked to told him that he should talk to me. Seems lots of folks that knew Mom and worked with her suggested he contact me.
Only problem is that I don’t feel that breast cancer is a direct result of air pollutants. And I don’t think that Mom’s decision not to take one of the meds (Tamoxifen) that could have kept the cancer from returning (to her brain, bones and lungs) was a result of the air. Or water.
Regardless, even if I did, I ain’t strong enough to be speaking on camera about my Mom’s death.
So there’s that. That is blog worthy, eh?
on November 1st, 2009 at 10:10 PM
My sister died of non-smoking related lung cancer, and when she first died, I was all gun ho about getting the word out. This month was 4 years, and I don’t feel so inclined to talk about it now. It’s almost more painful.
That reporter should leave you alone.
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on November 1st, 2009 at 10:30 PM
I totally see what you’re saying in regards to your mom…don’t let him pressure you; do what YOU want or don’t want to do. ((hugs))
WTF with the lawsuit? Seriously??
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on November 2nd, 2009 at 1:18 AM
I’m glad you have good neighbors.
And that reporter should be kicked in the balls.
And YAY I am subscribed to your blog.
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on November 2nd, 2009 at 10:49 AM
You are named in a lawsuit? And it involves this blog? What the hell could that be about? Da-yum.
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on November 2nd, 2009 at 11:23 AM
I always find other people’s takes on personal situations interesting. Usually because they bear no resemblence to reality. I’ve never, ever, in all the time I’ve known you and heard you talk about your mom heard you mention anything about the environment. Weird.
I do, however find it interesting that this reporter was looking to talk to you about your mom you while you were in Florida — given that you got to see her necklace in action during that trip. She was talking to you for sure!
And lawsuit?! WTF?
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on November 2nd, 2009 at 12:19 PM
Wait – I didn’t hear about this lawsuit either!
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on November 2nd, 2009 at 2:37 PM
Just so’s you know, it’s illegal for anything other than postage-paid mail to be put into your mailbox.
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on November 4th, 2009 at 11:12 AM
(A)Good to see a new blog from you!
(B)I never thought that any of the breast cancer in our family was a direct result of environmental pollutants. I love your common sense, I love your strength, and I love love love you to pieces.
(C)What litigous nincompoop names you and this blog in a lawsuit?!?!?! Really?
on November 4th, 2009 at 8:55 PM
lynda –
thanks for commenting and sharing your story. i appreciate it. while i don’t blame the reporter for trying to get the story out there, pollutants need to be exposed and folks need to be reminded, i just don’t think i am the right person for his story. for several reasons!
tug -
yeah, i easily decided that the story was not right for me and that he would be better served working with someone else.
sarah -
now how would you like if someone kicked you in the balls for doing your job??!?! bad, bad sarah. come here and lemme spank you a bit.
(thanks for subscribing! i’ll be gentle with those spanks. wheeee!)
b.e. earl -
perhaps i’ll write about it. although now i am a little scared to!
finn -
not weird…totally normal because the cancer that killed mom wasn’t necessarily environment related. i mean, i don’t know what brings on breast cancer, but still…sheesh!
so if you think mom was talking to me, what do you think she was saying? or trying to say?
avitable -
it just never came up in florida and i haven’t talked about it here out of fear of saying the wrong damn thing. coz you know me…so graceful and eloquent. ha!
dk-
he also put business cards in my screen door. dude was determined that i know he was here!
janie -
yeah, i think our family just gets breast cancer. thanks for the affirmation. love you to pieces also. even a little more than before because you wrote “litigous nincompoop” coz that is fucking priceless!
on November 5th, 2009 at 9:37 PM
Don’t rake the yard. The leaves make it look perfectly fall.
And the reporter? Nah. Let him be.
And the lawsuit? Kick some ass.
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on November 11th, 2009 at 3:32 PM
Seems that reporter was trying to connect a story that really didn’t have a connection. And why stir up those memories.
You and I lost our mom’s pretty close to the same time and even 3 1/2 years later for me, I still have a hard time. I still haven’t deleted her from my address book/cell phone yet. Just not ready, I guess.
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