Ξ May 27th, 2008 | → 20 Comments | ∇ me |
I’m ready for a change. Never before have I been this heavy and I am done with it. Sure, in the past I have said that it would be nice to drop a few pounds, but it is different now. Then I was still happy and content with how I looked. No more.
Never before have I been a stare in the mirror kind of girl, never have I been into fashion and clothes and all. I can’t imagine that will change no matter how much weight I manage to shed. But still, I want my clothes to fit a little better. My red face will always be round, but my chin doesn’t have to be as full. I love to be naked and it would be nice if I looked a little better when I am running around in nothing but a smile.
Don’t get me wrong, there won’t be much in the way of exercise or anything that will make me sweat (well, other than THAT). Instead I will go the NutriSystem route, one that I tried in the past and it actually worked. Eating remotely healthy foods in “normal” portions worked…surprise, surprise. June brings three out of town trips which will make things a little harder, but I don’t plan on being miserable while I do this anyhow. I plan on not denying myself the pleasure of a wonderful meal, but I am hoping that the NutriSystems prepackaged meals will assist me in the understanding of portion control. And while I am at it, self control.
Fuck, I am growing up… “self control” is something grownups do. Ugggggggh.
Nope, I refuse to think of this that way. I want to be healthier. I want to feel lighter.
And dammit, I will.
Telling you will help. So internet, I won’t look like this in a year. Don’t hate me when I am beautiful.
(Before you all freak the fuck out, yes I am beautiful now. It is just that I want to be beautiful and thinner. Not skinny, but lighter and toner. Thanks for being about to jump my shit, though. xoxo)